2 Pink Lines

Coming October 2013! :) 

I wrote the following post right after finding out I was pregnant and I have been saving it until I was ready to announce. So much has changed since then! I now have answers to some of my questions, and my brain has definitely shifted to BABY!! But I still wanted to share my initial reactions, if nothing else, just to remind myself later. :) More recent updates to come soon!

Yes, it's true! I took a pregnancy test and saw those 2 little pink lines that told me I'm pregnant! :) To be honest, I wasn't expecting anything from taking the test. I was silently cursing myself for wasting one when I knew if I just waited a couple more days I would have my period and know this whole pregnancy thing was still a work in progress. But I wanted to know because I had a really bad cold and was wondering if the cold medicine I was taking could be hurting a baby. I was not expecting to see that second line! At first I thought it couldn't be true. The line was pretty faint; maybe it was a mistake. But it clearly says on the box that 2 lines means pregnant no matter if either line is faint.

I told Scott and we laughed and smiled and hugged and high fived (true story), but it still didn't feel real. We wanted to be sure that it wasn't a mistake, that we weren't getting hyped up over nothing. So, we immediately headed to the doctor for a more official test. I also wanted to make sure my cold wasn't developing into anything worse. The doctor confirmed the results and eased my worries about the cold and we set off to call parents and siblings and let it all sink in.

I'm actually writing this post the very next day. I'm probably only a couple weeks along. I'm not ready to announce it to Facebook or the blog...but I wanted to write it now and save it for later.

Remember when I wrote about the life monster waiting for me? Well, it seems to be here in full force! I have a job interview this Friday (Feb. 1st), I'm finished with school, and I'm preggers! That's real life, folks! So far it's not scary, but I have a feeling it will be. I haven't really thought much about finances or whether or not I'll go back to work or what if things don't work out somehow... I guess part of that is because it's brand new and my mind hasn't had time to let all that wash over me. But mostly I think it's because I trust that God will provide for us and everything will work out according to His perfect plan. So what's to worry about?

I'm sure one day, and probably soon, I'll start wondering about my baby. Whether it's a boy or a girl, what it will look like, whether it'll be colicky, what kind of personality he/she will have, what color eyes, will he/she be a redhead?? But right now I'm not really thinking about those things. I think my brain is still processing pregnant and hasn't really gotten to baby yet. Maybe because right now it's just a little pen-point size ball of cells. But all I am wondering about right now is how I will feel being pregnant.

How big will I get? Will I have terrible morning sickness? What will it be like to have boobs?? Will there be any complications? Will I love every minute and enjoy the blessing or be in such discomfort that I'm ready for it to end? When will I need maternity clothes? Am I going to "glow?"

I know...it's all terribly self-centered. I know I will soon come to care more about the baby than my own pregnant self. But now it's just this mystery of an experience that I've only imagined. And so many people have different experiences...there is no guarantee of how my body will respond or how I will feel. I can't wait to find out!

I am eager for signs of pregnancy! My dad warned me not to rush it because many of those signs are unpleasant. But I want to know what I will crave and what will make me want to puke. I want to know if I'll sleep peacefully through the night or toss and turn. I want to have a baby bump! I know I've got several months before any of this happens. But right now it's all I can think about!

Until then, I'm just getting more and more excited about what is to come! I don't even care about not drinking wine I'm so happy! ha!! ;)

~Christy~